I strongly believe that there is no weight loss possible without self acceptance. I know it sounds very strange to work on accepting a body you want to change, but I strongly believe that weight loss starts with self-care, not punishment. Accepting our bodies is self-care. By changing the outside, we will eventually change the inside, the way we think about ourselves, and weight loss will follow. This idea is by the way explored in the wonderful essay by writer Malcom Gladwell call The Tipping Point (it is not an essay on weight loss). For example, crime rate dropped in NY city when they changed the environment. Will that work for weight loss too? Time will tell. How will I apply this principle? Here is my plan for today: clean my absolutely revolting wardrobe. Why revolting? Because it is a clothing store in itself: I have clothes from size 10 (college years) to size 20 (after pregnancy), and also a lot of pregnant women clothes. I feel extremely panicky just thinking of getting rid of those clothes. I am a size 16-18 right now, and I hate it: I am thinking, I will go on a crash diet, fit in those college clothes again, why would I get rid of stuff that I will use later, I can't give up loosing weight, and so on.
Here is my pep talk to achieve this difficult task:
-Do I really want to wear vintage clothes anyway, black tight pants and short skirt that belongs to a 20 years old?
-Do I really want to gain weight in order to fit in my size 20, or get pregnant again at my age?
-Do I really want to keep losing my actual fitting clothes in that incredible mess?
-I am really that poor that I can't afford to buy a couple clothes that fits o.k. and that I actually like?
The answer is no. I need this insanity to stop. And in reality, I end up wearing my husband's black tee-shirt over my too big for me pregnancy short.
So my mission today is to get rid of all clothes that are ugly, outdated or not a size 16 or 18.
It is going to hurt. I will keep you posted.
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